ABOUT THE AUTHOR — i
DISCLAIMER — iv
SYZYGY DEFINED — ix
PREFACE — x
PART I — 1
INTRODUCTION
1. Woodman quote about God as the Dreamgiver—Jung calls it the Self
2. Woodman quote about crumbling foundations
Chapter 1: the red Jell-O [January 5, 2000] — 2
Chapter 2: the frying pan [March 7, 2000] — 7
Chapter 3: the art of dying [March 8, 2000] — 14
Chapter 4: the first day of spring [March 20, 2000] — 25
PART II — 37
INTRODUCTION
Woodman quote about child’s projection of King/Queen onto parents
Chapter 5: the human bean [1959] — 38
Chapter 6: the bad girl [Fall 1961] — 49
Chapter 7: the storks [Fall 1962] — 58
Chapter 8: the color of blood [Fall 1963 to Summer 1964] —71
Chapter 9: the string that broke [Fall 1964 to Summer 1966] — 77
Chapter 10: the first bite [Fall 1966] — 85
Chapter 11: the fine line [1967] — 93
Chapter 12: the curse [1969] — 109
PART III — 119
INTRODUCTION
Woodman quote about children seeking a partner like the parent
Chapter 13: the savior [1970] — 120
Chapter 14: the trooper [1971] — 127
Chapter 15: the day the music died [1972] — 133
Chapter 16: the rape (well, not a real one)
[Winter 1972 to Spring 1975] — 151
PART IV — 169
INTRODUCTION
Woodman quote: “If a mother does not want the baby…”
Chapter 17: the secret delivery [Fall 1975] — 170
PART V — 179
INTRODUCTION
Woodman quote “Once the door is opened, the bird who has lived in a cage…”
Chapter 18: the golden dream [December 1975] — 180
Chapter 19: the praying hands [December 1985] — 207
Chapter 20: the athlete [Spring 1986] — 219
Chapter 21: the vulture [June 1986] — 228
PART VI — 239
INTRODUCTION
Jacobi quote “Four is an age-old symbol...”
Chapter 22: the dead babies awaken [1990] — 240
PART VII — 253
INTRODUCTION
1. Hall quote on the classic anima/animus projection when ‘falling in love’
2. Woodman quote on projecting God onto your partner
Chapter 23: the crack in everything [Early 1990s] — 255
Chapter 24: the repeat offender [Summer of 1994] — 274
Chapter 25: the lie [End of Summer 1994] — 276
Chapter 26: the banana peels [1997] — 286
Chapter 27: the little rag doll [1998] — 292
Chapter 28: the brick in the head [1999] — 304
PART VIII — 317
INTRODUCTION
Woodman quote about the return to the garden as coming full circle
Chapter 29: the magical smile [Spring 2000, Part 1] — 319
Chapter 30: the mess I created [Spring 2000, Part 2] — 336
Chapter 31: the unexpected storm [Spring 2000, Part 3] — 343
Chapter 32: growing pains [Spring 2000, Part 4] — 351
Chapter 33: the healing mother [Spring 2001] — 363
PART IX — 367
CONCLUSION
Woodman quote about women dreaming about beautiful little boys as their own inner masculinity is being healed; how too, by finding their soul, they discover the soul of the Universe at its core
Chapter 34: the pond beyond [Fall 2001] — 368
IN RETROSPECT — 379
SYZYGY WEBSITE & SITE MAP— 382 & 383
EPILOGUE — 384
DEDICATION — 385
AFTERWORD — 387
SOURCE NOTES — 388
SOURCES & RESOURCES — 403